Saturday I slept in. I love sleeping in. When I got up I texted my roommate and it just so happened that she and one of her friends were on their way to the river. She didn't invite me (she never does, and it hurts my feelings, and also, she doesn't invite me and then complains that I never spend time with her), so I asked if I could come. I was so excited when she said yes because I've never been to the river here. I haven't done anything nature related since I moved here last July. I've been looking forward to going to the river and I finally was able to do it. We had fun and everything, even though my city-girl ass was all scared of the bugs and the weeds in the river. I was scared I would get all tangled up in the weeds and drown. A couple of times I had to have my roommate pull me out of the area with the weeds because I floated over there on accident and I started freaking out. After the river we went to her friend's house to watch movies and then we headed home. In the car ride home we got in a fight. Big surprise. We're always arguing. I was upset, and it led to a major emotional disturbance which lasted several hours. It wasn't about me fighting with her, it just opened the flood gates for all of my other feelings about all the other things in my life. And once I start crying, I can't stop until I've cried myself out and let out all my frustration, anger, rage even, pain, and suffering out. I then went to bed, and slept in until this afternoon. I feel much calmer now.
For the rest of today, I'm just going to take it easy. Keep off of my sprained foot, it's really sore. Listen to the thunder and the rain. read. Hopefully my roommate sleeps all day and maybe even all night, or at least leaves me the fuck alone. I just want to be peacefully alone, relaxing. She never has understood that about me. I treasure my alone time. It keeps me sane and less stressed. But I do need to elevate my foot and keep off of it today. I've had a busy week and a busy weekend and the damn thing is not going to heal unless I let it heal.
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